Stella's headstone is picked out, designed, and paid for. We are awaiting delivery to the cemetery and it should be there well before Memorial Day. A headstone is such a weird thing to shop for. It is hard to think of all of the things that you want to be there, forever. We had a lot of clip art that we wanted to put on it but we ended up keeping it simple due to space, money, and mostly we wanted to keep it uncluttered. It was a fairly easy decision, surprisingly. Jordec and I were on the same page about what we wanted and when I wanted to go crazy with the designs, Jordec was right there to reel me in and remind me what really mattered. We have one quote, one clip art, Stella's name/birth date/daughter of, and then we had a medallion from NORS (the organ donation place) embedded on it. We chose black stone and we are going to have a vase permanently with it. It is a small stone, which is fitting considering how small Stella was! It is only 1 1/2 inches longer than Stella was!
It feels like that was the last decision we had to make regarding Stella's life. It feels like a good complete, not a sad one. I am happy that we can put all of that behind us and just remember her in happy ways. I haven't blogged in a while and I think that is because I am happy. I have been remembering her often and in happy ways. She is still a part of our everyday lives and we talk about her all of the time. I think that I have entered that stage of acceptance. My next issue is if/when we get pregnant again. I am worried about the feelings I will have and of what will happen. I am no longer ignorant of the problems that can arise during pregnancies. The reality is that anything can happen. I guess we will just have to wait and see when/if that time comes. God Bless! Have a wonderful Easter! Remember that Jesus is our Savior and that He loves us just as we are. Give praise to Him!
