About Me

I have a wonderful husband, Jordec, and we have been married since 2007. We have a son, Eliot, who was born in 2008 and our daughter, Stella, was born in 2011. Stella passed away after two hours of life. We were told her death was going to happen while we were 5 months along in the pregnancy and we prepared as best as we could for her arrival and death. We will claim her and love her forever. As I tried to understand what was happening, I realized that there is not very much information out there about dealing with infant death and, more specifically, dealing with an impending death of your unborn child. It was difficult to navigate through the emotions while feeling alone and uninformed. As I try to figure out how to live life now that Stella is gone, I realized that the grief literature is also slim when it comes to infant death and, again, especially when it comes to impending unborn death. I felt that if nothing else, my thoughts might help someone else understand that they are not alone and that what they are going through has happened to someone else.

November 13, 2011

In Stella's name

     We have done a few things in Stella's name, in her honor all ready.  Jordec started a group two months before Stella was due, in May, to get people moving.  He titled it "100 Miles for Stella".  We asked family, friend, aquantances, and strangers to move 100 miles in those two months until Stella was born.  People could move in any way thay wanted to, as long as they got at least 100 miles.  Jordec put his heart into it and did about 600 miles himself.  Lots of people jumped on board and the event spread.  Our goal, which we thought was lofty, was to get enough miles to go around the world, 24,901 miles.  We weren't sure we were going to make it.  We had people start their workout routine with the motivation from Stella.  Families came together on nightly walks and loved each other more and more.  It has been amazing to see all of the lives that were touched by our sweet angel, Stella Sue. 
     Our next event, to run a 1/2 marathon in Stella's honor and to raise money for the March of Dimes.  We want to raise awareness of birth defects and their impact on people's lives as well. This is a stretch for me as I am not a runner but I know that I will do my best for Stella.  I want to make her proud of me.  I love seeing the impact that she has and will make on people.  She has been a force in life and will continue to do so as long as someone remembers her.  I don't think we have to worry about people forgetting her when they are training for this marathon and who knows what else we will do in the future. 
     Thank you to all that are running with us and thank you to all that will donate.  Remember Stella Sue!  God bless!