About Me

I have a wonderful husband, Jordec, and we have been married since 2007. We have a son, Eliot, who was born in 2008 and our daughter, Stella, was born in 2011. Stella passed away after two hours of life. We were told her death was going to happen while we were 5 months along in the pregnancy and we prepared as best as we could for her arrival and death. We will claim her and love her forever. As I tried to understand what was happening, I realized that there is not very much information out there about dealing with infant death and, more specifically, dealing with an impending death of your unborn child. It was difficult to navigate through the emotions while feeling alone and uninformed. As I try to figure out how to live life now that Stella is gone, I realized that the grief literature is also slim when it comes to infant death and, again, especially when it comes to impending unborn death. I felt that if nothing else, my thoughts might help someone else understand that they are not alone and that what they are going through has happened to someone else.

November 10, 2011

Poem for Stella

Stella Sue, you made yourself known right from the start
With strong movements full of heart
Each kick, punch, and roll were full of bliss
Every day you were given love and a kiss
No moment of pregnancy was too small
We were blessed with them and cherished them all
Soon your time to arrive was near
We were excited and anxious to have you here
Our sweet baby girl, heaven sent
We looked upon you with wonderment
Ten fingers, ten toes
And a precious little Wiese nose
Round, soft lips and cheeks
We could have stared at for weeks
Your will was so strong
But your life was not long
You were here on loan to us
But it was time to go home to Jesus
The short life you lived was full of love
From here on earth and from heaven above
Daughter, you will live on forever in our hearts
And in spirit we will never be apart
In our family we will hold your place
Until we again see your beautiful face