About Me

I have a wonderful husband, Jordec, and we have been married since 2007. We have a son, Eliot, who was born in 2008 and our daughter, Stella, was born in 2011. Stella passed away after two hours of life. We were told her death was going to happen while we were 5 months along in the pregnancy and we prepared as best as we could for her arrival and death. We will claim her and love her forever. As I tried to understand what was happening, I realized that there is not very much information out there about dealing with infant death and, more specifically, dealing with an impending death of your unborn child. It was difficult to navigate through the emotions while feeling alone and uninformed. As I try to figure out how to live life now that Stella is gone, I realized that the grief literature is also slim when it comes to infant death and, again, especially when it comes to impending unborn death. I felt that if nothing else, my thoughts might help someone else understand that they are not alone and that what they are going through has happened to someone else.

November 8, 2011

Girls Night

    I had a great night with my girls tonight.  It was great to just have a fun night and not have any heavy emotions weighing me down.  Thank you girls!  I also realized the future relationship that I will be missing with Stella but I am okay.  That emotion didn't knock me over.  It was just a quick realization and then I moved on. 
     I want to make sure that our whole story gets told.  I want people to know what we have all been through so that we can help others if they need it.  Part 1 of Stella's story starts tomorrow.  By posting our whole story I will be able to remember it and have a written down history of what happened with our darling daughter.  I love you baby girl!  God bless!
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