About Me

I have a wonderful husband, Jordec, and we have been married since 2007. We have a son, Eliot, who was born in 2008 and our daughter, Stella, was born in 2011. Stella passed away after two hours of life. We were told her death was going to happen while we were 5 months along in the pregnancy and we prepared as best as we could for her arrival and death. We will claim her and love her forever. As I tried to understand what was happening, I realized that there is not very much information out there about dealing with infant death and, more specifically, dealing with an impending death of your unborn child. It was difficult to navigate through the emotions while feeling alone and uninformed. As I try to figure out how to live life now that Stella is gone, I realized that the grief literature is also slim when it comes to infant death and, again, especially when it comes to impending unborn death. I felt that if nothing else, my thoughts might help someone else understand that they are not alone and that what they are going through has happened to someone else.

December 27, 2011

For my Mom

Happy Birthday!  I love you!

More than you realize, I love you
Words cannot express how deep the love goes
I could try and formulate the right phrase,
But what is real, in my heart, only God knows

Others are put before you, without any thought
Your selflessness seems to have no end
Know that all you do is deeply appreciated
Our gratefulness to you we would like to send

Truly you are a woman who has great heart
Your strength in anything you've been through
Has been an inspiration to us all
I know my strength lies in watching the example of you

Here and now I pledge to be more like you
To live, love, and have faith never-ending
I hope to someday be able to pass them on
For these attributes, I ask from Jesus in prayers I'm sending

Every time I see you take time for someone
I realize the importance of living in the moment
Your patience is amazing and inspiring
To someday have your level of patience is my commitment

Remember that I will always love you
Even though I wish I could see you more
Know that the distance between us means nothing
I will always be your daughter and you, the Mother I adore

         Love, Bridget