About Me

I have a wonderful husband, Jordec, and we have been married since 2007. We have a son, Eliot, who was born in 2008 and our daughter, Stella, was born in 2011. Stella passed away after two hours of life. We were told her death was going to happen while we were 5 months along in the pregnancy and we prepared as best as we could for her arrival and death. We will claim her and love her forever. As I tried to understand what was happening, I realized that there is not very much information out there about dealing with infant death and, more specifically, dealing with an impending death of your unborn child. It was difficult to navigate through the emotions while feeling alone and uninformed. As I try to figure out how to live life now that Stella is gone, I realized that the grief literature is also slim when it comes to infant death and, again, especially when it comes to impending unborn death. I felt that if nothing else, my thoughts might help someone else understand that they are not alone and that what they are going through has happened to someone else.

November 15, 2011

Stella Everywhere

     Before we decided to give Stella her name, we didn't hear it very often.  After her diagnosis, we saw it everywhere.  One random day, the car in front of me had a license plate with 'Stella 1'.  Today, on 'Dinosaur Train', there was a star fish and her name was Stella.  Eliot's eyes got big and he said, 'Like Stella Sue!'.  It was too cute!  I love that he knows her in his everyday life and not only on special occasions.  My goal is to make that continue.  Had a wonderful day today and I will finish up Stella's Story Part 2: Bad News tomorrow.  As always, God bless!
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